First things first.
Hello, I'm kai, grateful alcoholic. I have missed you ALL SOOOOOO much. My internet is off right now, hope to get it back on soon.

Found this and had to pass it on...

A Higher Love

Loving someone who is 'easy' to love requires NO tolerance, NO effort, NO principles, NO help from my Higher Power.
I can like only the 'likable' and love only the 'lovable' with MY OWN will and remain selfish and self-centered and proud.
It's when I love the person I don't like;
the person who annoys me, or whines more than I think they should;
the person who just keeps not getting it, making the same mistakes over and over and asking me why it still hurts;
the person who p*sses me off easily;
It's when I love THAT person that I have to rely on my Higher Power.
It's when I love THAT person that I have to let go of self.
I have to constantly remember that it is not about me.
I have to live, and love, with true hamility.

When I began my journey in recovery, I enjoyed the comfort of comfortable people. I found a measure of happiness, and I stayed sober. Then, in a short time, as I started working the steps, I started meeting people whose personalities I found objectionable. I started getting caught up in THEIR program, THEIR defects of character, and would often find myself in meetings, thinking "Now, that's what 'SO AND SO' needs to hear." In no time I became restless, irritable, and discontent.

So, the answer for me is to reflect the unconditional love that I receive from my Higher Power. It is not an easy, or a soft way. It requires effort, strength from my Higher Power, and often times lots of prayer.

There's a reward (a pay off) that I could not have expected. I feel more fulfilled, more useful, and nearer to my Higher Power.

-Anonymous-

Love ya later. Kai