hello my name is bud and i am a alcoholic i have been a alcoholic for 20 years i have had some sobry time before my best was a year and something and then i thought i could do it on my own i have had more d.u.i.l.s than i care to go into i have done jail time and prison time the only real good that ever came out of it was that i found god at a young age in jail and thats the only reason i belive i am still alive today i have been on probion for 2 years i was odered to go to aa 2 times a week but i didnt go i put them off and lied and scamed things were up and down good and bad till one night i found myself with a shotgun in my mouth i though i had seen and done live and should of died so many times that it was over i put a gun that i allways kept loaded in my mouth but by god grace and his plan click when i opened my eyes my 17 year old son came in he could tell and knew what i had done he just started saying o dad o dad later after we hug and hug cryed and cryed he told me that earlyer that day he emteyed the gun on the burner barrow then racked it one more time to make sure it was emtey well you would think that i would have stop drinking after that i did for a little while then with just a weekend to go befor i was to get off prob i was drinking and got into a fight with my wife the police were called and i went to jail i tryed to hang myself there this is to say i was at my bottom igot 90 days and 2 more years prob i was going to sit out my time but was persuided to go to rehab after a time out i came back to realliy i am a alcoholic and i need aa sopport my new birthday is 01 31 07 things have still been one day at a time sometimes one sec at a time but with gods help and aa i am sober just for today and one day at a time thinks thats all i have for now p.s. is there such a thing as a syber sponser